presents from the poison hearted

a travel-spree in motion

2008-12-18T16:17:00.005+08:00

Tanah Lot, Bali; Indonesia

Prambana, Yogyakarta; Indonesia

Preah Vihear, Prasat Preah Vihear; Cambodia

Borrobudu, Yogyakarta; Indonesia

Angkor Wat, Angkor; Cambodia

Soon enough, you'll see all these architectural wonder on my camera.

Tarja vs. Anette

2008-12-12T16:57:00.002+08:00

VS.

The quality of Tarja can never be overpowered by pop-style vocal takes. Now Sleeping Sun just sound as pop as Britney Spears does (no offence Brtieny, i love you my home girl!). No matter what it takes, Tarja sounds her best no matter what.

koh phi phi - revisited.

2008-12-10T21:21:00.003+08:00

view point

snorkling with fishes.

loh dalum bay

monkey beach

bamboo island

maya bay

loh samah bay

run tee bay

my best pictures of my trip. catch my facebook profile for more.

it's britney bitch!

2008-11-30T21:02:00.002+08:00

first in sweet & sticky tour.

then at star academy

... and at bambi awards...

and now x factor.

WHAT!? Britney Spears is taking over the world? LOL!

LANVIN S/S 09

2008-11-23T01:50:00.000+08:00

It's FIERCE YA'LL!!!

the better of both evil.

2008-11-13T16:40:00.002+08:00

a vote you made to change. a vote you made to re-arrange.

2008-11-10T16:09:00.002+08:00

if a CHANGE you made with Barack Obama stands fortitude to your freedom and enduring a new phase and a new america and a new world.

what have you done to Prop. 8?

Something that crossed my mind that the people has taken away your rights. Now that is very America? What about starting afresh on the land of all equalities? It's a pitiful overturn that the same sex marriage banned is once again implemented by your pursuit to imperial judgements.

now watch this:

it's a commercial stereotyping how 'we have to get married, to get babies'. maybe they should work on educating couples that by them abandoning their babies... gay couples are saving your children.

phi phi paradise

2008-10-25T15:49:00.002+08:00

The paradise of Koh Phi Phi. an imminent vacation?

the passing of Gidget Gein

2008-10-11T12:17:00.003+08:00

Gidget Gein (extreme left)

The passing of Gidget Gein has brought many shocks to my knowledge that the once troubled bassist of Marilyn Manson & the Spooky Kids is still stuck on his bad habits. Found dead at his home, the reported death was blame on an over dose which he was a frenzy off since those early days with Marilyn Manson. All bless his art work and lifestyle that his once a great visionary under close covers.

dress in style, savour the fine

2008-10-04T12:23:00.003+08:00

i've not been a very good blogger lately. tagging myself on current affair news and being all caught up with the latest collection of spring summer runways. i've taken some time off from the words that i'd use to brag about my un-savory lifestyle. but picking those piece is never too late. i'll start the points as soon as i can.

1) i met with a car accident that enquire minor injuries.

2) i'm a rich bitch who drinks diamonds in the glass.

3) my lust for high fashion is over-powering.

4) and the ever complaining feud i have over my manager is long gone.

So 'll leave you with some of my favorite collections from this year's S/S collection:

Stella McCartney's latest collection comprises of very wearable and skin tone complimenting palettes gives woman a very feminine touch to their body, yet hints of boldness and confident.

I was personally very surprise with Yves Saint Lauren's collection that comprises of cage-like design (which explains the runway) and the amazing skirt-like trousers that flaunt a little more edge to the yest basic tops.

And one of my personal favourite comes from Dries Van Noten's latest sphere inspired designs that provides minimalism like an echocrome sort of way. And the induction of silky smooth shades that he did to couple different colours together. Just amazing.

KYLIEX2008 in Singapore

2008-09-26T16:36:00.003+08:00

KYLIEX2008 will land a hand on Singapore soil on November 25th as it heads to home to a finishing in Australia. My home girl is gonna parade in her top stage presence and Jean Paul Gaultier with bazaar stage decorative. It's just like pride parade at our door step. It's a waste she didn't bring her 'Showgirl' tour to Singapore. Which couples hot lads in speedos. Oh Gawd! I'm getting my pink boa on for this!

Same Sex Marriage Me, Braddy!

2008-09-20T17:06:00.000+08:00

Brad Pitt has donated $10o,000 to fight Proposition 8, the November ballot measure that would ban same-sex marriage in California by declaring marriage between a man and a woman.

Said Pitt in a statement: "Because no one has the right to deny another their life, even though they disagree with it, because everyone has the right to live the life they so desire if it doesn't harm another and because discrimination has no place in America, my vote will be for equality and against Proposition 8."

It's not the first time Pitt has made a statement in favor of marriage equality. In December 2006, he told Esquire magazine: "Angie [Jolie] and I will consider tying the knot when everyone else in the country who wants to be married is legally able."

You SAME-SEX MARRIAGE ME BRAD!

Live & Loaded

2008-09-19T16:23:00.005+08:00

If last year's international mammoths Megadeth and Heaven & Hell wasn't enough to satisfy your lust for raging guitar solos and ruffian vocal powers to the battery out of the living of the purcussion set. Then here comes Taste of Chaos, that comprises acts like As I Lay Dying, Atreyu and As I Lay Dying.

We will be (NOT) expecting shitter rock star attitudes Motley Crue to this years music festival. For their one night only stop. I rather dine by Fort Canning with my ear phones stubbed deep into my ear-canal. Unless Tommy Lee is goign to flash his well-hung twideleedo.

Ralph Lauren on Luxury Cocktail Shaker?

2008-09-18T16:07:00.001+08:00

What else? First was Louis Vuitton luxurious travel Chess set which proud the world. And then garden came frenzy with a twist of style and luxury with Hermes's gardening tool. And now Ralph Lauren's leather furnished cocktail shaker. This one is for a bartender in style. Shake it girl!

Prada Fall 2008

2008-09-17T15:19:00.003+08:00

An animated style surreal mockery video of Linda Evangelista's latest editorial shots on Prada's fall collection is out.

Video Music Awards 2008

2008-09-09T15:47:00.010+08:00

my girl is back (in silver)

Video Music awards has always been an indiscreet yet credited controversial award show where pop meets rock and ends collide. With music, after parties and gossip moments to chair arsing; why won't the viewers just drown in pop culture and celebratizing moments?

Highlights were that Britney Spears much anticipated rehabilitated return to the VMA's from last year's carrier toppling cheap grace performance of her hit single Gimme' More. Shredding through her lines in this year's opening, we know for sure that she wasn't lip-synching. My girl is back i say!

But wait! You just don't let off a woman like Britney. Your promise her with 3 moonman, packing up her thanks and jotted down on history for her first (three) awards. The once estranged pop sensation won all major awards which she was nominated for.

And on other news, shimmering top sensation since her hit single blasted the universe under an 'Umbrella', Rihanna stole the sport light with not one but two performances with her bad chick persona and mildly goth make-up. The casual dresser on the red carpet stomp all over the stage with her Dr Marts' and hits that gonna leave a macula. And Pink's return from her broken marriage has not gotten her. Maybe some extra celluloid under her arms, thats all.

Maybe there were no sights of breast feeding during the performance, but my vocal powerhouse Christina Aguilera looks slightly "Ah-Soh" (aging grandmother) with her new bleached-blonde hair do. But nevertheless, her debut performances which comprises of her hit single 'Ginnie In The Bottle" made a slutty remake that coupled her latest single. I saluta her!

In their midst of rapid touring, look what this psychosocial-disorder brought us? masked and suit with a count of 3! Hmpt! Linkin Park may have swept it. You guys know the crusade isn't over.

breakthrough

2008-09-06T18:15:00.007+08:00

one of my concrete providence by the SAF

"ORD OH!" has became a verb that many would yell like a holly that bears berries. and when it's a breakthrough to freedom, no one would appreciate the shelter and provisional supplement that we have enjoyed out of modesty. drowning in conceit and a privilege obscured, we tend to just walk out of the keep(excuse my over exaggeration) with pride of the pink i/d with joy of breaking regimental bullshit.

we'll from that step out of the guard house, walk upon our separate ways and the clock will start ticking to the outside world that we were temporary masked from. and a stepping stone in life i take very seriously. one that coupled my uber red-carpet introduction in being 21.

barracks or dormitory?

but i'm the sort of person who barely forgets the past. and an experience in memorial to the 2 years of my regimental lifestyle will always be appreciated. the friends that i've made will always be that special cluster of whacko i will always remember the good and bad moments we shared. and the company of the leaders who will always be labeled the (unsung) heroes of our
achievements and capabilities we would never imagine crossing. they will not need any documented testimonial in pledge to their sweat and blood. but nevertheless, their walking testimonial that is us.

the sing along-private (yet public) dancing cum jerk-off sessions are over

the outcry to all celebrations to break

2008-09-03T21:22:00.003+08:00

I know you can spare me the lecture. Blogging came secondary this time when it leads to party after party. Wait a minute as i squeeze out of my party dress and get back on track. So what? If it's a little more than just one party. Maybe missing the Singapore Flyer was a mistake afterall. But being twenty one opens more fly than just what comes waist down.

Being twenty one is a prelude to adulthood and all things to come. Maybe one world has ended (my military service), but another one begins. And it's not a heartache, it's just more backache. The luxury of being told to is long been gone. And being under the comfort of barracks is beginning to itch. They say the break of freedom comes this Friday. I guess it's more like a breakthrough to hell.

But bless i will be with the shoulder of my mother and my grandparents. I am willing to put this all together to start afresh. It's not all about earning money. It's a milestone i wish to take to pursue what will be - my future. And i need alot of deep concrete thinking to couple this.

Birthday weekend was nothing more than spectacular. Friday night at Tantric was as entertaining as i presume it'll be. With my best buddy by my side. Everything was as perfect as it can be fixate to. And thanks to the professional touch to culinary, my party still topples the skanks. The food was just so perfect, you odd to cry your every last drop of cum for that. And Ii owe nothing more than to these 3 gorgeous. Beach party has always been as awesome as i've predicted. Maybe an eye-wink and couple of new friends makes up a good party afterall.

So What? If i'm 21? I'm still gonna party like it's a rockstar!

and twenty-one counts a scarlet day

2008-08-29T00:00:00.001+08:00

twenty-one and counting. with delights of a better future in return.

Heart-Shaped Glasses

2008-08-26T20:47:00.004+08:00

I manage to ruffle upon few of Madonna's Sweet & Sticky tour and it came to my attention about the Heart-Shaped Glasses she wears that corresponds then Marilyn Manson single Heart-shaped Glasses. Where you're able to Rachel Evan Woods in the same pair, with red frames. Check it out yourself.

Looks like Queen Madonna is spreading some unconditional love through her eyes. I say, she picked the right person to share it with. And thats non-other than former muse Britney Spears. They may have dropped the line few years back. But kicking in a special video clip for 'human nature' and quoting "It's Britney, Bitch!", is just so fucking FIERCE!

vice and an appetite for addictions

2008-08-25T23:39:00.004+08:00

i know i've been stepping back on my personal blog post. but since the re-vamp of 'demi-manifesto', i had to go with the publishing to my key interest that i enjoy book-keeping to. but my addiction for series on reel has became a lust and notorious addiction. now that i've crown to have completed Desperate Housewife seasons and Gossip Girl season 1. i'm moving on to Lipstick Jungle about anytime. Thanks to Bhasky for sharing a new series that has Britney Spear doing some acting. It's awfully new, but it's one side of Britney, I wanna put my hands on.

How I Met Your Mother (All Britney Parts):

old is gold

2008-08-23T15:10:00.006+08:00

When posters roll out to unveil what the 90s model whose also quoted as 'an original supermodel', Linda Evangelista has done for Prada. I was mezmerised by the appalling structure of her sharp cuts. And Naomi Campbell will be the new face for Yves Saint Lauren. We are in for sure, that it has more than just these juggernauts to pull editorial campaign.

Are we also in for another surprise that Claudier Schieffer will be on Chanel in no time? It is reported the current Ferragamo face will hold hands with Lagerfeld once again. It seems that, there are still room for the oldies then. But nevertheless, older woman are still wiser (Unless they don't throw a fit every 10 minutes, all this aging divas)

Chanel Spring/Summer 2009

Scapregoats or Matyr

2008-08-23T13:10:00.003+08:00

South African community leaders are holding 'satanic music' responsible for influencing a high school murder the crumble up tabloids days back. Narrowing the blame to 'Slipknot', the band has denied any influence and remained mum over the issue that has had them the scapegoat of today's stereotypical society.

This will not be the first time an act of violence and treachery had pointed the blame finger on a metal act. Quoting 'images difference' and 'satanic influences' to the bill. Marilyn Manson was blamed for a high school shooting that took place in Denver, Colorado in the late 90s.

It's a pity society has targeted the stupidity of a teenager on the likes of art. And made possible another crime to blind blaming and running away from reality that is the morally disabled individuals that are taunted by their inner demons who goes on a rampage to a reason that might satisfy their lust for revenge.

But the world has their eyes only on a staple image. A musk that will cover the truth. Just like the South African teenage that used a must to cover his true stupidity.

to the better of two evil

2008-08-15T23:21:00.003+08:00

Wes Borland, former Limp Bizkit and current Black Light Burns main man will replace Rob Holliday for the new Marilyn Manson era which will kick start tonight. I'm surprise on the artistic collaboration between both evil. But i'm amaze by the interesting choice, and am looking forward to the new line-up and new album. & it's a good thing, Asia is the first to see the new double M.

be afraid~be very afraid.

Do I hear 'skinny sweeping'?

2008-08-15T20:56:00.002+08:00

Death of Luisel Ramos may have shock the fashion industry in the length these models go and the seriousness these extreme measurements has to come to a hault. But look at how it's kicking; when, not only fur is going to trip it's heels on most designers shoes, but skinny models will be swept off runways too.

because from now, the call to ban size zero is kicking up more than ever, since 2006. so is these the end for one of my favourite models Alek Wek and Lily Cole?

harper's BAZAAR vs. Singapore

2008-08-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

we all know how everything can go with fashion. but what mezmerised me the most was the extravagant concept of heights in heels and couture to the basement parked around our neighbourhood. and i don't mend rich tai-tai's wardrobes. Harper's Bazaar took couple of amazing couture and paired it up with couple of rich highlights around the island and made fashion not only sharpening it's bending edges, but to provoke the couture in any rising fashionistas who dream of being haute in roller-blades.

apologies if you can't get full quality from the candids. but you can visit Raffles' Shopping Centre for the rest of it's profound shots.

Polo Ralph Lauren for Beijing

2008-08-11T17:42:00.003+08:00

Polo Ralph Lauren is the official outfitter for the U.S. team in the Beijing Olympic 2008. The U.S team paraded in their new Ralph Lauren suits unveiling the national colour and official logo of the U.S. team for the opening ceremony. The finishing also comes with matching shoes and socks which you may be able to take a peek at it on Ralph Lauren.com. Ralph Lauren will also design the clothes for the closing ceremony.

echo off those walls

2008-08-09T23:47:00.001+08:00

look at those intensity off their faces. explains their passion injected into each stage. you can almost feel Trent's saliva. if there is one thing you won't waste a single nickel on, its a Nine Inch Nail's show. unfortunately, Lights in the Sky will not last beyond North American borders. so we can have quite some savings there.

if it's a countdown to manage, i'm quite in a middle of a digit fuzz. despite the days to put down my hats for service. i have one reason to celebrate this august, and thats my 21st. i've some things planned cheaply, just trying to thrift a little before i end up with empty pockets. but there will be some available reason to put my bills on, and i'm going to start with my 2nd mobile investment. that is the new business oriented Nokia E71. i'm just fondling with the colour. my eyes are on the silver case.

and most of my friend's ears bleed each time i complain my ripped-off color-changing wallet from projectBLOODbros. and that i'm deciding on something that will last me a really long time. which i am 50-50 about due to the vast varied i have, and the nature of my indecisive conclusion.

pay homage to dior homme

2008-08-08T11:26:00.001+08:00

If it's a national day to applause to, then make sure you have 'Dior' prints all over your national flag. Slab it on fashionably and don't be shy to share your wear. Because if one thing is going to make me happy would be to actually witness the soon to be blossom flagship store of Dior Homme.

If it's not for my cruisy little eyes ( i still wonder what that cute malay hunk has to do in coat and dior; the ladies must be packing him into their purses everytime he brings one a favourable size) and lust for Dior, I would'nt give in to the knowledge of their soon-to-be-flaunt flagship in the much anticipated ION Orchard opening September 2009.

Sadly, we won't be able to gag over our lunch and/or eat grass and dust over Hedi Slimane's slim-fit minimalism perfect-cuts. Since Kris Van Assche new wobbly masterpieces will take up most of the shelves. We hope to see them dock the classic aswell.

Kris

Kris Van Assche's first Dior advert campaign

While the area square foot is being fixated, lets toy to the comfort of other boutiques and challenge our minds to the fixtures and platform that will house the brand.

Tokyo; Japan & Los Angeles; California

Soeul, Korea

Hongkong

(P.S: I want freedom to glass showcases for leather goods and accessories.)

Before we have them name us on their official website, I already took the liberty to do it in purple.

something vibrant, something new

2008-08-07T11:35:00.001+08:00

I can't believe my eyes when i saw Sharon den Adel on the music video of Armin van Buuren. I guess this is how it sounds to have symphony and house in a great big twist.

This is Sharon in her latest single 'All I Need' with her foundation, Within Temptation. Look at how mighty she stands a posture with Symphony Metal.

men to their tears

2008-08-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

(sorry for the tearful faces)

few snap shots taken with the guys who left on monday, claiming their rise as the slightly fitter batch among us. teas were shed and words and hugs were exchanged. numbers were passed on and empty beds will take it's place. but memories will linger in my memoir as long as in the event of disbelief.

(P.S. - taken treasure can be viewed on a separate album on my Facebook.)

i'll find those ways to keep you waiting

2008-08-03T00:36:00.003+08:00

he's the man

still under the hood of an exploding soundtrack of rhythm and sonic vibe. recovering from those profound intakes of alcohol. and fighting those droopy eyes that lack of sleep is to be blame. but when i get up for the night; and my head still spins, i know i had a kick-ass time. for the record - i actually did. despite the low-budget entertainment crew for the dinner, and the slightly mono-lingual performance, made me pissed off. but with PLU, play was like a fresh fruit from the garden.

PLU

so how do i look in a coat?

memories of a soldier

2008-07-31T21:08:00.003+08:00

myself & once national athletes, camp buddies

if you don't know how memories goes a long way. you'll figure it out when you spend 2 years of your life doing something you despise, but knowing you've something behind you that is going to keep pushing you forward - buddies. the memories of this souls that crosses between those wretched times passes fast in camp. those immaculate days may have passed, but the memories of them still lingers. how complex this might occur, is what would always be - Delta Company.

as gliding through the scotching sun rays step by step, making sure each drum beat from the player pays well to the training we tan upon. chapters of those two years starts striking a big deal. and for once in all of those 2 years, it sounded more important than it could have in 2006. from the beginning of our physical building stage, to the beginning and he end of our almost traumatizing infantry package and the rather wicked days spend with operational bacinet training and those jet-pack duties standing tall and mighty every 12hours shifts. i can never imagine doing them all with my two hands. and neither can i imagine doing them without my friends. with them around, every lecture is a passing wind; every time we drop to be punish, is just another physical; and every duty is a passing facile solution.

like those bazaar loud moments i'll have with hafiz. or those secretly flirtatious envy i might have with someone else. or what the hack on my painful choice of words with hardiyan. and what a character to learn from, from the guys in the first section. i chose to enjoy every single minute of my horrendous life with them. and i will not regret each decision i made. because every single bittersweet moment, is a bittersweet memory.

part of the key players might have gone. but the game still stands one more month to redeem itself. and then, we pen as history.

me & erwin

me & hardiyan

psycho-socially intimidative

2008-07-26T16:27:00.003+08:00

isn't the new Slipknot video more intimidative than they are with their new mask. regardless of being pretty upset that they weren't sticking with their death mask back in the vermillion video. but sure enough, they are kicking more hots than they ever have. i'm counting on their next Asian dates.

im all set for the dinner coming friday. dress to impress or just to stick my head up to my mojo. i know how creative i was going to get with the accessories that i have on my mind. but im just saving it for another flamboyant day i might stumble upon. i'll be crappy enough to get one or two pictures up as soon as im all stuff with buffet and alcohol by the wee-hours. and apart from securing another wild night with booze and company, i'm gonna share the latest of what i've been up to:

1) I'm on to the 4th and final season of Desperate Housewives

2) I have 42 days remaining, to serve the nation as an NSF

3) I am constantly picking up irons before i slob a fat cake when i ORD

and mundane life cycles are more about kitty kat naps and fattening breaks from the unnourished cook house feed or even, couple of hours off the night on tuesdays, wednesdays and thursdays. but nevertheless, being perfect for the parade coming thursday will be a big chore on our legs, arms and complexion. so pick me on a good time, so we can go somewhere. just as long as you remember that im broke.

BUT!

you can tel i've a long string of 'things to buy' on my wishlist that just won another slot again today. i have to be wallet-friendly. maybe, even a new wallet to be friendly with.

in the name of gay

2008-07-25T14:52:00.001+08:00

An openly gay Turkish poster boy, Ahmet Yildiz was shot as he was leaving a cafe near the Bosphorus strait. He tried to flee in his car, but lost control and was pronounced dead at a hospital. A physics student who represented his country at an international gay gathering in San Francisco last year is believe to be the country's first gay 'Honor-Killing'. Fell into a pit of "a war between old mentalities and growing civil liberties" as quoted by his close friends.

Turkey's rise to the support of the minority especially with the woman and homosexuals are beginning to pen transparency in society but are a rather painful conviction to the traditionalist the circles and pry to suppress an old regime.

Other possible quotes related to unfriendly relationship with his family and neighbours who suggested him to consult a doctor for a 'cure' to this. "From the day I met him, I never heard Ahmet have a friendly conversation with his parents," one close friend and near neighbour recounted. "They would argue constantly, mostly about where he was, who he was with, what he was doing."

Hostility towards homosexuality has always been a tension in the muslim society. And for mandatory service examption - which sees homosexuality as an "illness". Men applying for an exemption to obligatory military service on grounds of homosexuality must provide proof – either in the form of an anal examination, or photographs.

Despite being a headline to many international press, 'Honor-Killing' is part of an everyday or grim formality in Turkey. In which, victims are mostly young women, murdered by male relatives for transgressing chauvinistic social rules. I recall watching a clip over such honor-killing months back, with Aaron.

Whether the case tensions between 'honor killing' or 'killing in the name of gay', Ahmet isn't the only one who surface about being murdered in the name of gay. Lawrence King, a 15-years old student was shot by his fellow school mate after King had asked his school mate to be his valentine early February 2008.

Remembering Ahmet and Lawrence.

one last call to camo

2008-07-18T22:06:00.008+08:00

one last trip down memory lane. live firing district we'll see the 2nd & last time.

i was busy squashing this slimy egg-like fungus on the rocks. they were gross!

arn't we just photogenic?

our mockery pose to the 'act cute/Japaneses' ah lians in the clubs.

tough & effective

assault force 'Section 3'.

it's usually the case back in the barracks. the commander gets screwed by the man.

Section 2, one more time.

further down the hill, objective as target boards

what we really ran up the hill for.

this is quite a special post for me. by far the last time we will have our faces painted in a military fashion. the objective was our company live firing which is part of our conventional package as trainees. and being the cam-whores that we are. we decided to put our camera handphones to some use. these pictures will go a long way down memory lane.

rusdi

latif

wee kiat

zoul

hafiz

walking off the end of the world

2008-07-13T10:46:00.003+08:00

Nightwish - The Islander

The Islander would be Nightwish's latest single, the 3rd with replaced vocalist Anette Olzon. Being bias over Tarja Turunen's contributions and exceptionable vocal power, the only reason why i enjoy their different approach must have been the amazing Tuomas Holopainen's major vocal installation to the song. Anette's background contribution would be better of with Tarja's orchestral influence. I'm spared with spreading 'Bye Bye Beautiful' & 'Amaranth'. The worst singles Nightwish (with Anette Olzon as vocals) came out with.

Cradle Of Filth - The Foetus Of A New Day Kicking

Cradle Of Filth bend their roots since Damnation and a Day and following Nympathemine and Thornography were testimonials of their fading aura over their previous work with materials more ravage and blood-thirst. Foetus of a New Day Kicking isn't much under the testimonial of their previous work. simplifing their essence of extreme metal, Cradle Of Filth had never sound any mellower every time they prevail how faster and darker they've become.

Slipknot - Psychosocial (Live at Mayhem Festival)

Don't they sound any more trash, trash metal i meant. we'll have to grade it via their tracks on the album when it releases. the quality of their live versions are rather blurry and difficult to listen to their new path. i find them slightly more technical from their rather lighter Vol. 3. which is rather captivating and interesting a find. looking forward to their Asian stops. and one on our soil.

you expect absolution, i say cheap grace

2008-07-12T15:55:00.005+08:00

supernatural is like part of military mandatory pro gramme self adopted by those who kiddishly expect the un-natural surrounding with paranormal shock treatment. momentarily clinging onto the radio set on their ethnic channel once pass midnight, or self-spooking at haunted venues around the island which brand 'adventure'. i won't pass a second wasting my time. but you can imagine a whole bunch of them doing more than what they can just to have experience. it's interesting how only they can 'feel', 'smell' or 'hear' such ludacris statement to their paranormal judgment. and this is not just a passing day encounter, it's beginning to become a habit i find an irritation and fill with stupidity.

but if you tell me to embrace something paranormal. maybe hellboy would be a good start. me and the guys headed down for an original graphic laden blockbuster which slammed right on our faces, filled with action and marvel-magic. which usually trills everyone sense. with beaming creatures and decades long heritage and mystical creatures. what more can you ask from a movie junkie like myself. superpower kicks supernaturals ass.

i wanted to share something i discovered taking a poop in my barracks toilet this week. just came to adjust with andrea fornseka directly staring at you taking whatever business you're doing privately. i'm oblivious to whomever who pasted it. i'm also oblivious to whom might want two eyes staring at you when you're taking a big business. not that it's homosexuality content matters so much. but on the contrary, i wonder what will it look like if i have a male porn star on te door. i wonder what the guys will do.

wither a petal by day

2008-07-06T11:57:00.004+08:00

like how green the grass would be on this side; all in a days' work, will just dry and shrivel and let of to nothingness. sooner or later the poppy petals will wither day by day and the once evergreen scenery will leave a macula as an evident history-rich testimonial that those stood on it will never forget.

i choose to believe how undisputed the company once stood as 'Delta'. We march a strong route, sustain the hourly long physical punishment, suffer in silence to the time packed schedule which gave me cluster phobic symptoms during our early stages in the service. but the endurance level of each mindset stood us strong to each hell-days we never though we could. but as the last 2 months surfaces, everything we once did and once stood for; just crumble to lots of hours to waste. i cannot motionly critic the standard we once set just to come down to this. the cycle is just natural to witness. as we can do nothing about this apart from just witnessing in silence in grief or in joy. as the company starts tearing of it's heart petal by petal overtime until ORD spells the macula.

Joey Jordison's new 'catholic church' inspired mask for the new era.
JESUS IS BACK (in black)!

cousins in malaysia.

2008-06-27T15:20:00.005+08:00

some may seem disturbing. this is not child porn.

my cousin sis on her make-over.

little satan

'am i gorgeous or what?'

just a morning call

'look at where the whippies are going to?'

room service

look at my layers

monkey business

Heineken anyone?

in a pool with a medal.

2008-06-26T15:01:00.003+08:00

safra yishun

i use to toy around in the pool adjacent to my living space in yishun. it use to be in the company of my childhood mates; but apart from those toddlish times, i've never step foot in the most convenient safra. but now, since i left 19 years of history behind. looking back at safra yishun is just some slight memories and a few take backs that i've missed when i was just by the street. i even took the liberty and time to say hi to my old shelter and the room i use to jerk off in.

cohesions like this have never been so much better than those earlier days. i even stayed up the afternoon with the boys, wrestling and splashing with every time and opportunity we have. everyone has their kiddish side. i just love making a dork out of myself.

the NOT SO happening

2008-06-21T01:51:00.002+08:00

clubbing plans - detoured. stash casually with my PSP and down to town. it's formally the first time we made contacts or to share a word or two, with Raihan's potential to be. but naturally, i don't know. being caught in all this drama just makes my energy drawn away. i'm really in no exact mood to all this commercialized homo-enthusiastic lifestyle. all the drama queen and eye lashes and explodingly loud persona that spears across one end of the room to another; or worst still - plague. i think i'm interestingly banging to modify into something more hidden that will pre occupy me with my days to come. i've begin to let loose gradually or what Zen would always poke fun at me for - 'divine'.

i always enjoy the company of good friends. and never the less, Junaidy decision to catch a movie with his god sister and another friend was swift enough to take me off the occupied seat clustering Raihan and his muse and just take off.

'The Happening' would just end with a 2star if rating comes in shiny bling blings. regardless of having it's usual Shayamalan touches to the reel; i suspect surreal aspect of the entire movie made alot of stereotypical minded people just scratch their head. well, it cause me to loose few dandruff. i couldn't even understand the motive of the sudden airborne virus that skept through strange mental stimulation and it's lead to un-natural death sentences. i wish to adjust the leads on the role, but i don't think it's gonna make anything far more eventful than that of it's gimmick moniker. you don't even have to wait for the DVD. skip this crap!

homosexual = sodomite

2008-06-20T02:14:00.005+08:00

my deepest heart-warming regards to Nish to her future with emirates. i'm so so excited that lady is gonna fly, meet new people, make new friends, stumble upon her ups and downs in life and share her charming little smile; all in the comfort of far far away land. the only thing i'm jealous of her is she gets to leave this pathetic 'sanctuary' for a good whole three years.

but i'm confident enough, with that tiny bottle figure of hers. is gonna good use with the pillows and table services hundred of feet above sea level. because all those tears at the departure hall, will make her fortune and her family proud of her. like to speak, i am already bold with white teeth shinning proud and mighty of my 6years good friend. good bye for now my friend.

so as some reckon my lust for desperate housewife. i manage to get a snippet of their season 1 to some knowledge which i'd like to share, putting my exclusive partner to PLU blogs to heights. i just can't end with a dead link.

so for all those who crave desperate housewife, you'd have learn about Bree ad her bubbly slightly morbid character running along her goody-two-shoes redneck curls to a bounce. and together embracing her "quite a challenge family" through motherhood and being a perfecto-obsessed housewife. stumble upon a breaking news about her son's newly swallowed down homosexual lifestyle. and bringing upon a christian family, a reverend was call upon to 'wash away' and 'bless' this little boy that goes like this:

Reverend: "So Andrew, your mother told me you started some sexual desire over other boys".

Andrew: *stairs in dismay*

Reverend: "And over the years, we've had so many young people come to our ministry hating themselves for their un-natural desire and in a few months they'd find inner-peace and tranquallity that is nothing sure than miraculous". "All it takes is a little faith and desire to change".

Andrew: "I'm sorry but I really don't wanna talk about my sex life".

Bree: "Well, thats too bad because this needs to be discuss".

Reverend: "Bree, let the boy speak". *looking at Andrew* "Go on".

Andrew: "Well, I appreciate the offer to help, but i don't hate myself". "So, I'm good".

Reverend: "Son, I know what is it like to be a teenager, it's a very confusing time".

Andrew: "I'm not confuse, I know exactly who I am".

...and the Reverend offers help through confession without force. with Bree interrupting that his giving up on Andrew. which in replied "well, you can't force him on the path of righteousness, he himself should want to make the journey". which Bree speedily asking what she'd do if her sons starts dating boys and correcting the word 'gay' into 'sodomy'. and the whole thing goes as Bree looking to it as a problem and her son is perverted.

my point here is to just leave you with your own ordeal and the comfort of your own words to argue or provoke a convo like that. BECAUSE. this episode aired on channel 5 without it's usual MDA hack off. the irony.

what on above, then aswell below

2008-06-17T18:27:00.009+08:00

some random shots of my little aslan.

so his just gaining a few scratch at the right spot and you can see him flipping and doing some stunts like that. isn't he the most adorable 14 years old?

so the weekend partying in celebration of dave's ORD went down a long shallow road. despite the unfortunate stage plunge the kid had to take thanks to his middle finger. which i manage to dust it off his shoulder that im not your ordinary skirt wearing gayboys on the dance floor. & that i will bite back. we also enjoyed the clinging shot glasses to merry with tequilas and lots of booze. and for the night, we puked and went home walking zig zag.

working out on the long off merely covers more spending. manage to run down with a DVD player and some house session from ikea. building a small home takes some time and money like any ways it will come to. & thats not all i've left from ikea. i came back with a list aswell. i also manage to cord around Prince Caspian and later this evening, Get Smart. And since we're making it much early, there goes the road down to more money spent.

but for the better, i took Steve's offer to the advantage. and i'll be a farmiliar face to Broth than it'll ever be. And just for the record, i'm working towards my first laptop by the second month. it's some big money. but it's just a small price to pay for my entertainment and something to file my personal. not forgetting on leaving sharing down the rainbow. now i don't have to hear my mom or my sis the interest to share. but how do i get the wireless function fixed? thats gonna be a challenge.

and my budget days are left standing between desperate housewives, family guy and my computer. the sins of my beloveth over drama and cartoon just takes me a step closer to hell.

what army dudes do when they're bored 2

2008-06-15T18:23:00.001+08:00

what army dudes do when they're bored 2

yan and his mermaid pose.

my fat medic, chris.

"hey! hey! look! i got some you can play with"

cousins and the better half

2008-06-12T16:51:00.006+08:00

my cousins just being random.

a world a criminal apart

2008-06-11T23:04:00.003+08:00

reading have been a distance for quite awhile. scapegoating military service is my quick reaction. but i'll blame on lazy eyes and lack of interest. but so to speak, and i'm picking things up before i'm done clapping two hands off the army. headlines are a good start. or random or slightly eye-popping articles from magazine or readers' digest caught me up for the past couple of days and i'd like to share one that caught my attention that momentarily sprung into a frenzy of emotion and a dictation to a stronger being.

reader's digest humanitarian article of a once broken peasant woman in a rural village in Pakistan portrays a lavish life that we enjoy in vain - a pity. such a basic structure of a woman whose life borders on her haunting past and her captivity to nourish a different to the stereotyped living condition that battles most poor or in this case - woman. i manage to pick up many inspiring vision she took that changed hundreds of life and nurse the broken to a better and stronger being to stand on their own two feet. and all these came from a timid soul whose rape record and nearful honour killing plunge her down. and now, her believe in an educated woman population made possible with her girls school. and her nursing programme to help broken woman paid with an institution.

celebratizing or not. she needed something in the name of honour. with a grateful difference she make. you only need a handful of these people to put a full stop to the killing and mistreatment that comes together with the grouping of caste.

and another article i would like sharing with you might probably be of shock value to some. but it's just something that i notice and take great interest in. you know how historically acclaim places of worship are to most travelers and backpackers. you know how photography junkies just stand to the proper shades just to snap couple of worthy shots. and how mesmerize people stand to the amazing structure of each pagoda or pillar or the statue of a non-human looking being. which usually is the case for peace and sensuality.

despite being an atheist i regard many places of worship or temples one of the most interesting places enriched with culture. despite the booming architectural details carved onto each patent brick dressed in colours just makes you stand in awe. the beauty of each building date back to hundreds and thousands of years back brings you to wonder the specialty and hardship that couples dedication to erect a structure this magnific. so by definite, if there is one place you'd take a trip to. take a moment or two with their holy alters.

just how long will it keep to stay the same

2008-06-08T12:09:00.001+08:00

animation has always been part of my cycle of life. childhood is never enough that it still haunts me till this date. so we caught Kungfu Panda and laugh silly like crazy horses and a BFF evening out stumbles upon a price possession that we were all upon like it would have cum upon us. it wasn't very easy letting go what we both want to get. but hiking for the correct size isn't very easy. well, finally there is something we can agree on. which will commemorate our life-long friendship and many more to reel upon. and it comes with a price and style like every sweet escape would be.

threat-or-trick?

2008-06-01T01:53:00.004+08:00

MONGOL as first read. it would most probably bring shivers down your spine. for those whose more illustrated in the history of the ages of empires and colonialism. one would defiantly remember the emperor behind the largest empire the world has ever known to exist. This movie illuminates the life and legend of Genghis Khan in his stunning historical epic. Rather the stereotypical blood-thirsty tyrant that is usually embrace by historians.

This stunning dramatic saga re-writes the ferocious ruler's early childhood days as Temudgin, and the perilous childhood to the battle that sealed his destiny. MONGOL brings you an inspiring, fearless and visionary leader. the making of an extraordinary conqueror and the foundation of his successor - his wife, his most-trusted adviser and life-long beau.

have the wilderness of an epic or a fantasy navigate deep into the child-like mind and stimulate a mysterious vulnerable atmosphere into a mere captivating illustration of boredom. THE FALL brings the mind of a bedridden stranger whose whimsical story is about to flourish and bring about an exotic adventure fill with picturesque landscape that will captive a little girl's fall a worth-while stay in the hospital.

and to make THE FALL an even in-trusting subject, he weaves the story line with her family members and the people she love. knowingly set-sailing for an unconditional adventure that will captivate and mesmerize her into tears and fears. for the liking of a fantasy ridden feary-tale-SQUE fan. begin the adventure. break a leg!

end of a legacy

2008-05-28T14:06:00.003+08:00

end of a legacy

when my family gathers to hold court, it usually takes a lot of boldness and character to put them all together in one room. and then observe through the looking glass. as shrines of smile slugs to black faces and gossip and bitchiness just by rubbing shoulders with each other. nothing has ever come merry. and even if my family did, it never lasted one full year without a hole to tear it apart. i usually refer to immediate family when the tree of life starts from my maternal grandfather. but this time, family streams the entire branch of my maternal side. But if you scratch your head and question - what about his fathers'? i say - dead.

and speaking of which - dead. now this is one reason why the end of a legacy compliments the rant about my family. my great-grandfather passed on this morning at 5. leaving behind a family astray, which most potently he doesn't actually give a damn. reluctantly accepting the counts of gray on his head may be the cause. but! im going down to slide it off and chuck it down the corner. brush it down my shoulder because a reunion and my family are like the opposite ends of the globe. they are

within a circle - yet distance apart.

spare me the condolences because not a single tear shed. and im not vain to say im in remorse. all i was there for presence and smile just hides under my hood of out linger mood and cranky syndrome. probably lasting just for the day. but i don't usually appreciate high drama and family put together. and for the sole reason that the togetherness came with the death, how perfect. i wounder to myself - is this usually the fate where togetherness comes only with a cause of a damn. and trialling down the time line, it actually is.

you know, i envy in jealousy to the fondle of reunion through smile, laughter and wholesomeness. which quality like this took a miss in my family. but for another reason. death is to embrace us upon the first leg. it didn't take us all by surprise. and neither did we took it for granted. i'll have to say how awkward an inner gut glutton me about upon the motionless corpse lay on the floor traditionally dress and hornered. but no matter how the distance may tore us both emotionally. nothing compares to the legacy he have built to finally end in peace. and in grace he lays for peace, after 80years.

day one in sembawang wharf

2008-05-21T02:00:00.002+08:00

back to the namely efficient deployment duties by the docks over the 3 week duration brings a little light confidentially. separated into two different ray of light

- the scorching sunshine that rays her wrath upon us duty-mongers.

- and the passing eye candies that model themselves in uniform.

subsequently reminded by the memories from porn flicks i've bookmarked over my slightly stimulative fetishes - men in uniform. just 7 hours into the first wave of duties, and i can already count the orgasmic sailor boys i would have one chance with. mocking over the deployed position i will take outside their lavatory with jun just gives me slight giggles over my passing doom days.

we (that includes jun) have caught the bug of a travel spree. by the excitement that our passing out of the world comment is actually becoming alive. discussion brought about afew details i took acknowledgment of. but Bangkok is definitely the heart to varies wats (temples), palaces, night market and shopping destination which every travel junkies will definitely invest few bhats on. with flying testimonials from Aaron and magazine columns that provides a better understanding to my yet to come getaway destination. not to forget the credit i burden upon wikitravel. i'm putting together couple of landmarks and wats i'd most possibly be bless to be in it's presence by late september. and following a travel destination for affordable shopping and local cuisine. it s a definite to round up their ever famous night market which are in par with those back in Taiwan. relieving back to those hip-frenzy lorongs just brings back memories of days i spent in Shiling and Ximen.

atleast getting me occupied just keeps every passing day just a millimeter less painful to bare the thought of you. with alot more to occupy as each passing day without you is a memory of your once humble -soft touch.

i will never last a mile away without you.

2008-05-19T20:12:00.005+08:00

initial plan scrapped but revived as i prepared my evening for last night's fabulous night. as i remember the last fabulous night i had with you, and smiling silly to myself. i made my way down to Steve's deconstructed vision of furnished apartment. there wasn't much a party planned well, since my mistake on my pants scuffled me on the train. i had abut 3 glasses of Moet before leaving for home with Ben. im kinda blessed that i brushed his shoulders at the end of the night, and only paid $2 for the cab back. there was nothing that could make me dance last night. not even the ever-fabulous Claudia with a brown wig and fishnets.

i'd personally like thanking all those who have shouldered me with support over this though times. despite some being quite negative and favorable, but im humble by the deep comfort they render for the past few days. like last Dave's effort last night and Junaidy's every passing day. Last but not least, Raihan's positive attitude towards my favour for Aaron. without their pillar, i'd be rubble by now. i love you guys.

does it even look appetizing?

cooking may be one alternative to a peaceful evening. i just glutton on my grilled red & yellow pepper sandwich dressed with shitake mushroom and chicken frank. topped with japanese mayonnaise and black pepper. but for better recipe, check out my mate Zen's food blog entitle the Silver Pantry kitchen adventures.

i will always remember all those memories that you drown me in. all those smile that showed me my better everything. i can never hesitate to take another look at you again. wherever you go, i'll breathe and wait for you each day. i can't hold on like this for long, but the thought of you just keeps me going on. im gonna miss those look into my eyes. and all those time we'd tease for a better change. and by all this, i still believe. that we'll find ourselves in love again.

you will always be a part of me

2008-05-18T18:37:00.002+08:00

decision to take at tantric last night came last minute. just after jun, raihan and myself were slurping our coffees at starbucks central. we may have caught a moment or two giggling over some fun facts that the internet had to share. while i had half price sushi and breathing wasabi out of my nostril.

the day spent getting junaidy's computer fix was a rather big headache. being in a budget constrain and an impatient person. we had to settle off with a second-hand temporary system, using some devices that he took earlier from zen. but his glad and so proud that not only the system is up. his over the internet sharing what he'd always been dying to. beats me. im not going through his files.

now the sunday is slightly a matter of just taking yur shoe off, in the comfort of my own home. if baby was still around, i would have been in the comfort of those arms and some family guy.

still lingering on the memories of his presence. it's like a reel that rolls on a romantic filmstrip. i know that someday somewhere i will be back with everything we once shared. because it's only a mater of time. & nothing is gonna stand in my way. he will always be a part of me & he will always be my baby.

i miss you.

the day he turns his back and slips away.

2008-05-16T18:20:00.004+08:00

CX716

i could have done this today. making it it's toughest time to make any sense. i had to do it the day before. i hope i'll get whatever emotion i can at whatever place it belongs. because everything around me will cripple down to dust by the time i wake a new dawn to it.

for the running past months, the company of you have filled me with creations of believe, laughter, smiles, confusion, doubts, progress; in anoher words - to the balance of mix emotions. but despite that, i definatly enjoyed my time with you and treasure the friendship and hugs and kisses that embraces every passing day. the leek for empathy would not best describe the opposite given reaction. but i'll thank in sorrowful hands for the condolence of my lost.

by definition - to my other half would be a very cheap prospect despite raihan openly flaring us being something more than just cotton-candy over the ferry wheel. now, i've taken a close look and made the safe place in my heart a little hole to feel the other side towards more pain (or gain). which ever sides balances a better memory. i can live in this illusion and choose to believe for a better future (which i already have). but the merry-time is over and all that is left are just empty apathetic strolls down memory lane. ephemeral might be the most technical form. but it lasted more than a million words when i put them together.

there might be many things with this end of the chapter that i might be afraid to see. for example, it would be one less reason why i should drop off bouna vista station. the tickets i tucked in between my wallet slabs are another source of a better written memory. and the meals we had together tasted more delicious with you by the side. and the flickering movies, f.r.i.e.n.d.s and family guy over the laptop screen bargains a sweeter and safer roof under those unforgettable crash overs.

now all that i see in my reflections are just me. and i'll find myself one less reason to fondle my fingers over the keypad for. im not sure how i can withstand holding my tears and sniffing up the beau i had for you. but as time goes by, just maybe i'll pick myself up and walk again. im glad he like the birthday gift, which took me sometime to get my hands on them (even though i still personally hate the black one. which ironically is his favourite of the two tees). and im glad the last lunch with him at pastamania will once again be one of those places i left memories by.

so by his words, he made me wait at the airport. since he was going down with the help of his current temp. flat mate. so since 5 and for 2 hours, i waited in vain. he didn't turn up. what puzzle me is that despite follwoing the time table, the flight and the right terminal. i was still unable to catch him. and educating him to take my number down before he sells his phone. after all this, i still wasn't able to meet him. im confuse if he had checked-in earlier or did something wrong happen. what grief me is that im unable to hug and hold a last goodbye before he leaves. i hope for news as soon as possible. and all of these are important, because im not sure when he'll be back again.

im really gonna miss you aaron.

P.S: this post was posted on the exact time of his flight depature.

come on tell me how you've made all this go away

2008-05-15T19:51:00.004+08:00

i wouldnt really put it in a different look. taking a bitter prospect of hiking and the reminder of running. mix them together in a tropical temperature and you get alot of negligence to it's importance. the key factor is definitely - healthy lifestyle. but i slacked off the 7.8km route just like shaking dust off my shoulder. and barely scrapping through the time process just by walking. i just don't like the idea of a perspiring body in a public transport after it wraps up. and by definite, it's one least way i'd fancy sharing body fluid by.

but i definitely enjoyed the crushing metal sounds of iron man. irregardless of the straight snip to the end; it still has what i'll score - awesome graphics paired on mesmerising ideology. magnific.

in comprehensive and rich history i manage to indulge with raihan. we just had to meet the noon to flaunt our perky random jokes, btu it's also to hang-out with aaron one last time. before tomorrow is too late (which it actually is). scouted for overly price bags at bugis which was an irony actually. how my prospect of the price tags became different. so we scouted for a better drive to get a faster running ibook for aaron.

but tomorrow, is the day he'll turn his back and slip away.

i don't understand why i'll say i'm gonna miss someone i never thought i would in it's first presence. i don't understand the reason to the running tears that rolls down the cheek. and i don't understand the empty stares that i drop my jaw in awe for minutes. does it gonna make me better than anything i've become? or has it taken what i left as a legacy? or has the litted candle take me over and melted the hole in my heart. do i actually think i am really gonna miss him? or has the line blurred the day we met by the window as nymphs? are they just questions of a convinced goodbye? because i cannot go through this again.

put your head down high

2008-05-14T23:22:00.002+08:00

with an opportunity to run the masses with cohesion via a battalion's effort came - a game of soccer. squeezy stadium seats that tucked with a same-same dress code, that splashed singularity to our side of the game. jammed-packed with soccer fanatics or mere- fun raisers. with the blast of your ear drums with the uprising cheers, fanatic screams and laughter; brings down to an appetite for a loud roar. i wouldnt disagree the effort of the cheap-sorted cheerleaders effort. neither would i shy behind the supportive-back of a loosing team. all that i've to say is that i just wasted 90minutes of my time doing what i will never do voluntarily. congrats.

so since the night-off tonight went to waste with the 90minutes game. we got a chance to steal the night on the first day of the week. i thought how ridiculous it was, despite just booking into camp the previous night. but i made no nonsense with the privilege. taking every single hour to the winning side. i thought i'd steal a deal or two from bugis, but it went to the bin where sale is a prority to throw, shuffle and wreck through the product in a junk-pile like extravaganza. being such an impatient persona myself, i had to skip the time irritation and i decided to put my wishlist to the test.

since i made an empty effort at wisma atria's gap store; thanks to the unprofessional and english struggling sales assistant help i got a week ago. i had to convince myself and made a revisit, this time to suntec. fortunate enough;

1st: an english speaking familiar face.

2nd: an available size for the shoe i desire.

BUT! all this has to run-up to reserving the piece at vivo city instead. we (at this point of time were running with an empty stomach) decided to settle ourselves with ThaiExpress. i had to give a reasonable yet not overly budget threat for the effort jun injected in helping score for my SOC. with an appetizer to share and a hearty main course and proper drinks (not tap-water); the bill rounded up to $38 with a smile on my cheek.

so by now, sitting on my wooden arm-chair and the new pair of shoes by the side. you might suspect my luxury being out of camp? thats where you're wrong. because we have to sweat an an orgily fashion to a 7.5km run around the reservoir with another effort of cohesion.

now shoot the fellow in the head. we need a proper party planner.

Nine Inch Nails - The Slip review.

2008-05-11T20:37:00.006+08:00

TheSlip

The Slip (Halo 27) is the seventh studio album released on 5th May 2008 via digital download. Trent Reznor produced the album alongside Atticus Ross and Alan Moulder. Before the release of The Slip, Nine Inch Nails chipped in two single during different dates. Releasing speculations that an album was on the way.

Looking back at days of it's 'With Teeth' influence and a come-back from YearZero. It's rather melodic and contemporary music like 1, 000, 000, discipline and a rather alienative europlex, makes Nine Inch Nails an alternative complex with a wicked twist. Head Down is another example of a cross between YearZero and With Teeth, having a slighty torturous guitar industrial riff with a rather clean vocal lead. And Lights in the Sky brings about a meloncholic feel to the whole album. Bringing back days dating to 'The Fragile'. Irregardless of downing some instrumentally ear-ripping tracks.

The Slip will fill in the gap since With Teeth did. And with rugged noise atmosphere, with twsited and rather raw drum-beats and YearZero like platform; i've definatly found my favourite "Head Down". So download the highest quality files from their website. Before the extravagant makes disable before your ears.

happy 21st birthday; aaron.

2008-05-11T01:42:00.003+08:00

unintentionally wicked, i slither my way down plaza singapura for the phenomenon that is 'superhero movie'. engrave onto my heart as a fan of scary movie, and being that they were behind the motive of a really random screenplay. well, what can you get from them apart from laughter, laughter and more laughter?

so, since it's the day my bank gets slightly a little fatter than usual. i manage to get my hands on the dark blue massimo jeans i've been waiting a long time for. personally, i really think it's a really good investment. it's not exactly a splurge because since i needed a good pair of jeans. and the exact one i wanted from stylenordic cost 3 times more than the massimo one. i'll get a snippet of it when it's done with the alteration.

i broke more glass than a weeks effort at work just few hours ago. i still stand behind the counter. think it's a luxury being paid $10 an hour for that? try my position. i feel like a steward mentally. but well, people do things for money. as far as im on the right path on that one.

my detour to tantric for a little drink gets me lots of stares and looks. it was as if i had bits of napkin on my face that needed those attention. i grabbed a wine with ashraf and greg for about 15mins. realising it's too much for me. so thats why im here, 1:54am on a saturday morning and 1 more month to go on keeping a safe distance away from the crued money reaping machine that is night life.

i'm watching you drown, i'll follow you down.

2008-05-09T21:36:00.005+08:00

have you ever virtually do up a list that comprises 'things of your utmost phobia'. i may have. because i had to face it without expecting or even in a short notice. for your knowledge, one of the top most phobia that evades me comprises of the field of medical. be it in an operation or a minor surgery. something that just cuts you up, or the gross anatomy just makes me sick to my stomach.

and thats no much difference from a poke of a needle (im a pussy when it comes to injections). I.V. it was for me due to constant dehydration. not that i hadn't had enough to drink or that im in negligence to the essentiality that Myanmar is facing now. apparently i had stomach flu the morning of the week's monday. after battalion physical, i realise there was something erupting in that little tummy of mine. confident enough that i'd have to realise from behind. it switched sides. it went opposite on me, and out of my mouth (that don't mean i shat from me mouth, excuse me). my stomach was swell and the stomach flu crumble every limb, affecting me to weakness. so drips it was for me at pasir labar since that was the only one that runs 24/7.

if phobia comes in a sense to the thumbs of your beating heart to the cold sweat and choking fear. then phobia has just been kicked back. and this is one i don't have to see again. finally clearing my SOC after 3 tries, im proud to say i can now pull my head up and give a pat on my back. apart from the solitary training, i think the mutual support from my buddies matter(ed) the most. this is one magic i will never forget when my years down the road as a civilian starts to kick in. and i'll have to brush more compact powder for junaidy for running down the entire pain and sweaty route with me.

and if its a cold and painful road i say. it'll come down to one that breaks my heart to even type how it bites. when wishful-thoughts so often proves in vain and the needle spikes your heart in pain. thats how much i'd know i have exactly a week left to be with my better half. & from then on and all, it's just memories of those that were left to scare and smile.

Nine Inch Nails - The Slip

scabbing through the fresh tracks from The Slip (reviews out tomorrow), i hunger in vain. what can i do to get some japanese out here? the sakae sushi hub nearby decides to fix their glamour up at the point when im having my craving again. its definitely not something stale from sushi deli at this time. so my oi! mee suah and a cup of milk tea to settle the deal. maybe they were those taiwanese days back in late last year that kicked in. well, definitely nothing beats the grass-jelly curd filled milk tea which waters your mouth. consider the drips by the gaps of your mouth. that is one thing i'll go back to taiwan for.

ditching the free movie web, and being a big epic sci-fi fan; the answer is: 100 million BC. it may be a gimmic to 10,000 BC, but anything for a good blast in your years and to dinosaur roars and pre-historic kick-ass graphic. but nothing beats the remake of king kong.

sashimi & his partner

2008-05-04T18:28:00.008+08:00

as it might vividly be flaunt on my online diary that i have quite a apatite for food and my possible cravings during mid-weeks. in which life is slightly a little more challenging from where i'll be actually housing. the crave starts to stimulate your taste-buds and it just plainly makes your taste-buds slightly a little moist than usual.

i do my part in feeding myself according to my craving. i hate to put my crave to the challenge. and that is why i can no longer withstand my cravings and got myself 5slabs of salmon sashimi. despite being overpriced & lodging a queue to pay it, i was unable to resist them. with watery tongues and itchy fingers, i could not wait upon reaching home to gobble them up.

my main reason to be at forum was to get my printed tops from aisha. those were meant to be birthday gifts for aaron before he leaves. im quite satisfied with the white one, but the black one is a little less perfect (just to be nice) than i expected it to be. but what the hack. both tops cost me $60 in whole, and they are not going to the bin. regardless of me being slightly a little unhappy about the results and how imperfect im grumbling about.

these are the much better printed white ones.

this is rather un-professionally done. & it wasn't suppose to be this small.

i manage to get the first nine tracks of GHOST I-IV from nine inch nails official download website. instrumental part is rather different from what they have done. judging from the free downloads, its definatly an album worth spending your money on. its definatly a soundtrack for all the electronic and industrial junkies out there. irregardless of the ultimate-deluxe edition of the album, which cost US$300 has been sold out. you can still grab their deluxe edition and their contemporary disc set at quite a reasonable price.

last night at broth was a little hectic. acclimatising to the vivid movement and customer service momentum is a little wicked on my side. well, being not able to out pour for a year an a half made some great adjustment to that part of my life. im a little challenge to being as lightly a little more reactive than usual. but im positive in working forward a better shift and a more professional outlook towards my carrier. every step i take here in broth, is my learning stone. and im not gonna make anything take that out of my way.

crash the night at aaron's then after. apart from the prata (had no other choices to take; due to his slightly particular taste-bud) we had our time with f.r.i.e.n.d.s and knocked off pretty soon. thinking of how time like these went to waste. you cant imagine how these spare times we have are so precious to me than it has ever been way back then. i dont know. but feel like im loosing someone i dont want to loose so soon. but there is nothing that i can do about that.

plenty a night to intoxicatie

2008-05-03T13:56:00.003+08:00

if better the first day at work can be, would not be a priority to work itself. it would be non other than to wine and dine with boss after my shift. my first shift yesterday ended up having me to work behind the bar. washing glasses like a steward. so why would i not deserve few glasses of wine. and i really meant a few.

i had so much that i can barely walk back home, but i did eventually. im happy to see raihan and some new mates at tantric. its a pity i don't have my baby by my side. might just crash over his place fater work.

work is a little different from my previous experience. i got an understanding with dave that the place needs more than a major cleaning. it needs a woman touch. it needs organiation. it needs sorting out. it needs hygeine and it needs more than another normal day at work. i think i might make a difference to BROTH. hopefully it'll end up even on both sides.

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something an urge to possessed

2008-05-02T23:01:00.002+08:00

working my long weekend to an advantage, and bless with the advantage that i live just 10minutes a bus ride away from the city. i make a last minute decision to take my way fat-lazy ass down town. window shopping would be the only options; hence i ended up alone and with no errands to run. boarders with the magazine stands was the first option. sashayed down to massimo and zara for a little spoilt couture. pose a little with their new beatles collection top a and german-boy cap. ive totally fallen in love with energie's spring summer collection. especially the gray stitched design jeans (pictured below), which will put a hole in my wallet. it would actually cost me $445 if im really gonna put my money on them.

energie - spring/summer 08

the next mesmerising thing would be the spring/summer collection from prada. the dark gothic theme to their casual suits for this spring/summer brings a little twist and flavour to my taste buds. its something i would actually invest on. and with that; now i might just get something which is inspired (because i know i can't afford a prada) by their collection - a black cardigan from garcon.

prada campaign - spring/summer 08

i wanted to get a gray basic from gio-concept but it was rather pricy for a basic. i might be actually paying for good material though. so i got one from pull and bear instead. wich cost half the price from that of gio-concept. good job! i got a skinny black scarf from Mu which cost me only $5. good job to that too. so somewhat fill in shopping from what i missed earlier this month. just looking forward to next month's pay. my invest on the massimo dutti jeans and the gap shoe will prevail. the shades may just have to wait awhile.

more from harold & kumar.

2008-05-01T15:01:00.005+08:00

for the record, the night out with the boys to ST James didn't actually fantasize me. jun and i made last minute decisions to catch Harold & Kumar escape from Guantanamo Bay. the much-anticipated sequel to Harold & Kumar go to White Castle which i manage to sneak in few years ago when i was under aged. same old-same old humor and same old-same old raunchy & random scenes to a whole pack of laughter. it's worth throwing your $10 for a movie like Harold & Kumar, just as long as you're above 18.

jumping up and down, banging my head to the rhythm of the drum beat. and screaming the voices to the lyrics are beginning to take it's itch soon enough. was going through couple of live videos by Slipknot i went to few years ago when they landed on our shores. putting my fingers cross to a better line-up for SingFest 2008. or maybe LAMCproductions takes more vibe to their next featured act. LAMCproductions is of course Singapore's leading gig organizer who brought us acts like Dream Theater, Slayer, Megadeth, Blondie & many others.

Nine Inch Nails new single, Discipline. Enjoy!

& this is my new awesome ring tone.

I'm off today, yelling that i'd spend the Labour Day at Broth. which means to say that im officially starting work at Broth tomorrow, or should i say On Job Training. & hence it's a friday night. i'd just drop by tantric for a drink. seeking it's most convenient location that im blessed with.

i just don't know whats with me and F&B. but i just don't see myself doing anything else. i know i can't do art. which mostly sums up to any art course i'd have to take which includes design. i dropped out of, after merely attending the course for 2 months in the ite. i definatly can't feel comfortable doing engineering, electronics or mechanical. i'll go bezerk trying to figure what im gonna put my hand into. thats why F&B is my peak choice to whatever i'm going to do and excel in. and i believe thats how far im gonna go with it.

YAY! to labour day & my long weekend. despite the full shift tomorrow and the dinner shift for saturday. im still blessed with sunday to rest. before beginning a regular week in camp. & we all have to begin to adapt to that. and of course starting SOC training all over again right from ground zero. & i'll update on my suffering as that comes. for now, it's me and my off-days.

mark the end of JGL

2008-04-29T14:15:00.006+08:00

yesterday mark the end of singapore's cheap security effort at jurong island which involves me. being the only available source of un-paid form of security service comes from the men in uniforms - how convenient. especially with our under-paying allowances does not take much appreciation from our superiors, and topping the bill with critics. tell me how worth while an experience that is to appaul us as a young singaporean like me and many others whom i represent. sometimes i think, what i need is out of this place.

shortly after slapping a cable TV channel with a S$10,000 (US7,360) fine for airing a commercial that showed two women kissing, the Media Development Authority (MDA) yesterday fined a free-to-air station S$15,000 for airing a programme that showed a gay couple and their adopted baby; on the same day, a segment of the Ellen DeGeneres Show where the host condemned homophobia and the recent murder of a 15-year-old gay student.

announcing this on it's website, the programme normalises and promotes a gay lifestyle.” which is an issue hence, this is in breach of the Free-to-Air TV Programme Code which disallows programmes that promotes, justify or glamourise gay lifestyles.

so with the media being a barrier to the freedom of lifestyle, the government being the sole answer to the damnation towards the health of our personal and individual normalities of our nature. and a penal code momentarily choking the neck of any gay individual in the society. making you wanna cry out for libery? save it. we have been through that with repealling and surveys and multiple action taken to the parliament. just by being vein as a stratagised topic protecting family value and a conservative society.

rubbish.

but it is ok for the tv to air semi-sexual content from various content of drama or reality programme. it is justifiable to flaunt the acts of violence through action movies and the likes of murder through documentary and crime-scene dramas. because it's ok to show the likes and content of such to a family valuing conservative society. because some likes of singaporean do not accept the content of society but they do enjoy sex, violence and drugs on tv. and remember - we all have to be aware of that!

oh-what the fuck!
you all get an air of the segment on my blog whenever you want!

there was one reason why me and mary got closer by the days then - 'jas'. that backstabbing runaway bitch and weirdo family was part of history then, when i suffered knowing how the story twist and turn to the favour of her mercy and her family support. and her retarded incest (i mean this!) brother trying to crown king with his yah-yah-papaya attitude. and all the help i got from mary would always be appreciated.

and since mary & i loose our touch over the years due to differences and time constrain whatever the reason was. we hooked up again thanks to the same reason - 'jas'. apprently, that oversized poser turned up at mary's part-timing shift. to my suprise i learn from mary that she is still in singapore. i was suggesting a big 'L' on her forehead. for nothing more than she deserve. that frat-LOSER.

splash a new template

2008-04-24T15:18:00.002+08:00

im balancing a new template for my blog, with raher interesting factual accounts and tips to spice up better reading and nutritonal lifestyle supports including 'health tips', 'fashion tips' and ' do-it-yourself recipes'. updates will regulate according to concrete facts and my enthuisasm. i brought back my wishlist section to keep track on my financial splurge. it's definatly not a multi-million dollar make over. but im just getting my chances on the typical blog market which spawns one part of our life.

it is back to camp for me - a week to deploy - & im solve with jurong island. so i've less than a week to stock my bag with the cordials and milo packets. the boys are hitting up phuture or zouk on the 30th. & im inviting dimple and hopefully aaron and shannon aswell.

im trying to sort out what i can pull over my shoulder for the ORD dinner. im still looking at a suit to invest on, but im gonna throw in something slightly loud to draw in the prime. was going through the latest inspirational and magnificent collection by Lanvin & Paul Smith. and im working forward to have something similar to their collection. working with accessories and maybe a bow.

display of hospitality power

2008-04-24T01:18:00.002+08:00

for 5 hours, me and zen were muggling up the gigantic expo floor the entire afternoon. fingering our tastebuds to the sample foods and swallowing wines after wines, with rose to top, aperitif to digest and liquors to dub down. lucky my knuckles i got my hands on an unpublished guide book to grappa and cocktails associated with it.

i will say how amaze to what you can learn from the various display of hospitality and culinary power that they have to offer. it's a self-learning journey to each and every detail of the industry and what they have to offer.

now - how lucky can i get to be allowed this bowl of rice without even paying eighty dollars. all credits to zen and his aunt.

the shame that drains your dignity

2008-04-23T01:02:00.003+08:00

Meritocracy: "A system in which advancement is based on individual ability or achievement" - promotion in another words. you may have learn a new word. but i have learn a new meaning to it. in military, individual assessments base on contributions, stability and hard work are suppose to be recognise according to the system meritocracy, and promotions are liable to those who have contributed positively to their service. in my judgement of words, assessment done base on the entire duration of service are the out-most key factor in the process of promotion system.

but last week, meritocracy made a different liability to the claim. and militarily styled, the effort and contribution to those who put their heart and soul into their effort to bring upon a positive training system were not recognise. recognition base on physical standards were access to that - two unworthy hearts were crown corporal. i mean, 30 dollars ain't a big deal to some people. considering the end of service in about 4 months. but to those who have injected the amount of work they can't possibly imagine - thats just not fair to them. so much for bring meritocrats and so much for having a system to it.

I say bullshit to a system of recognition or promotion to those who have contributed positively, especially in military fashion.

the missing presence of my baby is beginning to take it's toll on me. pretty much since i know this weekend i won't be ending up fondling within the warm forearms and being generously kissed on the cheeks. or even snuggling up the baby blanky over 'friends' or friend rice and bubble tea. even though part of these mundane life cycle is gonna fade like the early morning fog, i still have 1 month to save me from my heartache.

i've been brushing up on the list of details steve gave to me. it's difficult parting the slumber-habitat that i've been upholding for a year and a half-and now jumping to an eloquent waiter in front of you smiling silly to your crude remarks or friendly gesture. yes - one side says impress your boss. & another spells 'try to pick what you left out along the way'.

my day will probably end with a convention and grandmother's place. im just so bored and out-of-mood over not having baby by my side. but i've defiantly fix his birthday present.

you are my wonderwall.

2008-04-18T10:58:00.002+08:00

i's quote that my aquarium on facebook is overcrowding. but i myself can't imagine how the sushi and sashimi are swimming in my little tummy. yesterday's plan on sushi tei toppled over thanks to the over-population of gluttons. so we ended up at a small yet bare able mr sushi, recommended by zen. situated at the heart of B2 of ngee ann city. the bar styled sitting area would have challenged us into the minimalism in it's menu or me over re-acting to catastrophic. but i would take that back. the food was slightly crunchier and juicer compared to any japanese i've swallowed, despite being their last order. and the price tags don't come with a big hole in your pocket. even though i had a slight bitch fit over them running out of sashimi. but i manage to steal afew from cold storage. in total, my bill calculated 40 for three heads and i wouldnt have to complain a single bit.

we left for 'going om' then after. even to living up to my label as 'fashionably late', the cafe ran a great heart with lights, excitement and some fizzy drinks. and last night, momma (i meant oli)was in-charge. so he was funny and so was plush. plush is his out-of-the-galaxy looking grey hound breed little girl which was running all over the place. even though she was hoping more than using all for legs to good. some day i need to bring my little girl to meet plush and they should just socialize in their k9 effort.

arron couldn't last the entire time. i guess 63 was taking a toll on him. with the comfortable sofas and hypnotising music that soothingly tickles your sense of hearing. we left at about 10:30 and there wasn't much to do either. he was about to drop any moment and me... well... i still wanted to play. but now, thanks to the midnight charge i'm in the comfort of my own home. murdering time for mid noon so that i can make my way down to PGP again.

effort to impress steve is about to take it's toll. with his given menu. oh! and have i forgotten to inform you that im part of broth in anytime early may. im excited, likewise a little afraid speaking of how a dangerous situation i may be in. but all that i want is to earn some extra dollar bills and that all thats part of my agenda.

Ailyn and the Sirenian Shores

2008-04-17T16:11:00.000+08:00

Ailyn

isn't she beautiful? Ailyn is the new singer for one of my favourite goth metal titan, Sirenia. extremely excited in their new come-back. hopefully she don't sound as bad as Anette of Nightwish.

Now that plans have changed. i didn't take the interview with steve. miscommunication led to the mishap. BUT! we are actually meeting later at 5:30 before i head down to town for sushi. so detour down to tampines to get the driller and brunch with zen over pastamania. we had coffee down at starbucks when i saw fella's sister. and royalties to the chocolate moose cake which my entire section glutton upon few nights ago. unfortunatly my mother is doing the same thing to half of it.

a crunch on my back

2008-04-16T01:10:00.000+08:00

you can't tell how much it hurts until you fall over the drain and scream out in pain. im suffering from back aches and wiggly legs after guard-standing duties for the most heat-hated sector. two days consecutively and it's like a 5-inch knife down my gucci. so we stumble upon a slight delay thanks to the section to what they do best; negletion. but it wasn't a hassle or a puffle because im in the comfort of my home with a cold cut trio in my hand (i still wounder why my mom had to heat it up) and a bottle of mogu mogu nata de coco-orange juice; and jun is not even back yet.

i made an extra-free deployment record and i stand a chance to badge a rank sewn on my ampulet in may; how exciting. and later in the morning would be my first formal interview with steve for my part time assistance in broth. which im gladly taking a voluptuous effort on breaking my bone on this. it's one part i can make good use of my off day; and i really mean over-the-top.

may just look upon my new gap slaps after that. which means i have couple of errands to run, including my alteration and the driller. but what im really looking forward to is - aaron. words just won't type my fingers out to how much i miss him. im looking forward to treating him over sushi tei but ive to squeeze the sitting booth with dave this time. we're all so excited to kick the evening at oli's going om cafe. new place to NOT just pose, but go divine. which i've been putting ample effort to get it right.

what army dudes do when they are bored.

2008-04-13T15:51:00.005+08:00

im releasing three edition of "what army dudes do when they're bored". few reasons why im still able to sustain and enjoy mandatory. and let me start with our Taiwan trip late 2007. in which candid shots were taken in & off our training schedule.

christopher doing what his best at.

my buddy on his silent mockery over navigation.

christ in touch with his child-side

the divine embrace of the cow and my officer

back in the barracks of Hukou camp.

Raihan's birthday gathering

2008-04-12T13:40:00.007+08:00

usually, my appetite wouldn't deserve breakfast. especially when it's traditionally altered to perfection - home cooked. mom made puthu early in the morning (notice it was just 9 when i had it, and i usually get up around 12 when i partied the night before). it's without a doubt appreciative. and to swallow up lunch with mee goreng. i feel so bloated up.

every morning when you get up with a bump in the head or what that makes you go dizzy and droopy; you sure know that you had a good time the previous night. and i defiantly had. speaking of Raihan's surprise birthday gathering; it sure went according to plan. im delighted he quotes "this is the best birthday ever". hence; the nightmare in sengkang about anytime this afternoon. so i drop the cake being a sweat-cow. i was pushing through play crowd and finally at Broth. which i might end up to more than just the friend's boss. I personally adore the beautiful vintage english style decorated colonial building and interior which suites a smart casual cafe like restaurant. even though you get slightly above than average waiter in pointy heels and skinny jeans and a bling around their waist. what pop my eye balls were how fruitfully biting their chardonnay which usually just taste like a slap of butter on your tongue.

i was amazed to see close friends in the company of Raihan's surprise party last night. even though i looked like i was a pinball, running up and down tantric, trying to keep it as planned. and im so glad the card was filled and the stone key chain may match his laid back boyish personality in becoming a more skater-girl.

we usually steal the crowd at play, just like last night. the eye candy and the stage slutting tops having the whole motley crew on stage. it's secretly hilarious how i actually went around the arms of fazil. it's just funny and unexpected. but there are nights that i just wanna have fun. and this was one of those.

Evening at Raihan's Suprise Birthday Gathering

my facebook album

touch my body and all over.

2008-04-11T21:15:00.003+08:00

fixations gives minimality to possibilities. making there being no room to maneuver. like a mental suffocation. and disabling freedom of speech and human rights. thats one cultural pin into the hearts and mind of homophobia. and it bleeds my heart to reckon the painful stimulation people like myself still don't have a stand in society without mockery and gossip. but what the hack! i know i can touch my body and whomever i want to in whichever and whatever personality i wish to portray. thats the reason why the new era quotes "presents from the poison hearted" & "demi-menifesto". join me (and my big-mouth) in a world to unveil zeitgeist.

so the trip to ikea was like branding people of wealth. we were paying through our platinum dollar bills and ranching through essential household organising goods. which usually isn't a big gah-gah or a splash because they were necessary.

and raihan's scrumptious birthday gateau is chilling in the refrigerator. im settle to know it's gonna be splendid. now that i found something to match his 'sha-nel' like stussy wallet which he brags about it's minimality and polish attributes - key chain. not as fashionably appalling as my coach honey. but good enough to embrace your up-rising bold statement. so went high-end today with zen all over town. bouncing like a rubber ball from taka to wisma to taka and paragon in search of his replacement to his dad-worn sandals. and browsing through grandma's birthday present at the prada store. i might just get so certain in getting her a money bag instead of a much personal style to her hand bag. god! how can her gay grandson see that woman of wealth and just leave her to stray without a major make-over.

i don't wanna stop

2008-04-10T23:38:00.003+08:00

sulking by the tower walls. caressing my twiddle bite marks by those pesky mozzies the previous night. the newly implemented radio by the background - blasting it's big mouth to ease the tension in our bordem. i spring into attention and this time, in response -

"what in all world is that on the radio?"

i'm not usually a big fan of the air waves, but this is frightening and unacceptable to knowledge such an artist like Ashlee Simpson can make it to a radio. Worst still, the whole recording process, cover editorial and production cycle. with the horrors over bad picthing and songs that don't even make complete sense. no wounder the slogan reads "rock is dead" in the hearts and minds of true-hearted wilderness. And thats another excuse to why i'm not a fan of the radio.

But what the radio gave me smethign to smile about was Jordin Sparks. her collabration with Chirs Brown is just magnificto. Dig "No Air" for better understanding.

so it's another typical day off. but a spanking bonus of luxury and party time. quater-pounder size suprise suprise for raihan tomorrow. i'm excited to know that i'm the host to it. his gonna scream so loud, his mother is gonna slap him with her tudung.

But by unfortunate understanding, baby is gonna miss having a slice of creamy gautue. since his going wave-kunking at tioman for the weekend. how am i gonna withstand two weeks of not even looking into his eyes. i wish i wouldn't have to stop breathing the same air as him.

to a morning with a head so big

2008-04-06T09:24:00.002+08:00

rumbling my steps taking one at a time patiently. walking back has always been a privilege for me. i use to remember how much time i would waste awaiting the inefficient nightrider services. or either missing the bus-stop due to the drunkard habits of mine. or whats worst - throwing my money on cab. shifting over is like a gift - i'm able to save enough of time and money. and why won't that be a blessing.

G's party back at Joe's apartment was pretty lavish. sticking the pinkie out to a glass of wine or bubbly. and gourmet style slightly hearty finger-food with the specialty of Steve and Joe. it wouldn't be that of a surprise, looking at Steve's Bar-Restaurant On The Hill (BROTH) carves good legend on the culinary mark. now i've one more place for my F&B experience. and this time, my boss might just be my babe's boyfriend.

since Steve has a little winkie for Dave. and Dave soley-considers being Mrs BROTH. thats one lucky girl. it's a fortunate how he meets real companions unlike all my leisure flings.

it's back to camp tonight - or should i say this afternoon. and deployment has never been any threatening than novermber could be. buying lunch for baby and maybe ballooning up that little belly with waffles and bubble tea. it's his favourite. im just so excited when it comes to him.

presents from the poison heated

2008-03-30T14:45:00.009+08:00

if being to pre-historic time and back isn't an easy-giveaway answer to what we caught last night. then, just count your fingers to:

10,000 B.C.

& that will answer. despite not having a very sensible story line and quite a snipped up ending. for fans of epic blockbuster and large pre historic 3D graphic. this awesome jammed pack showcase of 'nature against man and man against nature' adventure will fill your screen with colours and excitement. because bombastic movies like this deserves a big screen.

despite plans to junk ourselves at the heart of the city. we took a quick detour to vivo for our dinner which kicked ass.

being affordable is a separate issue. but having to pay just too little a price for awesomely prepared food is a definate credit to the cafe. being labelled Terra Cafe; and managed by a slightly mature lady with slender chinese-korean looking waitresses. this is one place worth pending your service charges or topping the tip jar despite their simplicity in communication skills; but they try; and its a definate yes to politeness. speaking of which; you can glutton up on hearty portions of western food that would promisingly satisfy your taste-tentacles. located on the second level just beside the Golden Village plaza; you just have to spend your bucks and impress not only yourself but for the sake of yous company; because eating at coffee shop or food-court (apart from food republic) with a date sling onto, is a shame status slap right on your cheeks.

tantric was hot last night. despite showers in the afternoon before. it was the shortest period of time i spent at tantric. BUT! i finally manage to catch the epic that is star-wars, & full-heartedly beginning to adore it. aaron has the whole collection when i flipped his DVD pockets. so you can obviously tell where i housed last night.

im gonna just pretend i didn't remember not attending Zouk Bazaar this afternoon. Just maybe later if i manage to slurp and slurp on home-crafted Nasi Lemak. I would be blessed!

one. two. three.

check out my new heels.

End of the Rainbow

2008-03-29T14:29:00.003+08:00

Tonight mark it's "End of the Rainbow" party at Mox to bid farewell to one of Queer-life's extravaganza. Located just above my regular party arena PLAY, Mox brings about a promising crowd of fine men and some woman (or sometimes in dual-edition) mingle and be-merry over drinks. shashaying into the slightly retro-thememed bar dimly lit and not worrying about a cover-charge. apart from not being a frequent face back at mox, i did enjoy my time back there when i made few pops earlier this year. we're gonna miss a fine non-cruisy place to chill. but bless be that tantric don't shut it's doors aswell. i'll have to sip by the fear of back-stage then.

which i'd have to painfully accept.

being in-decisive is always a fraction of my life. so this part of my life have to decide on the movie we're gonna cozy up upon. & a good place to gobble up dinner at aswell. in short- plan the evening for myself and aaron. but one thing is for sure, i wanna bd my last goodbye to the place i enjoy the most - mox. even how stubbon i was on gluing my butt onto my wooden chair for the weekend.

i need some major bitchifid ass-whopping girlfriend.

i have classily 5-6 more months more until i'm free from being release against my will. two years take pretty number of petty, sore-ridden & painful days behind the luxury of an all expenses paid for stay at what usually branded - maju hotel; my second home. and promising enough, i have to raise the figure of my bank statement by then (but of course not to a whopper size).

historians through the days. but characters are a booming solution to getting away with each passing day. they're like a typhoon swivelling around, bombarding the bad aura away. which draws a smile on a dull face. some might pose being aloud as a display than their deceiving outter features. but some vulgar display of power actually unfolds a better understanding of a persona. but despite being able to relate some, i did relocated some from being companions with to just being a bitch now. but thats what life is all about. and we can't disagree any further.

but after i'm gonna put my uniform away and this segmant of my life is left behind. i will miss the rumbling sounds of laughter, lame jokes and gossips back in camp. but i promise memories of the military are life-long ones. and that is what i call a life-long memory.

wiggle my shackness off my sleeves.

2008-03-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

dinner was beautiful. dinner has always been. well, anything that involves food does with a great big smile. he chuckle and wiggle over the mario and mighty mouse t-shirt he wanted. babying-out at pull and bear over the pride of his new cartoon edition. even though not getting size for mighty mouse made him frown like a child. his a baby walking on two feet, i tell you. we manage to get pasta, we shared like any couples would. even though i liked mine better. and sheesha by shiraz at clark quey. thats nice influencing me smoking & tobacco under my pants. cabin over at his and was down to camp the noon after.

just so ORD spells from the letters of the alphabatical chart. So does everyday mandane life and story at camp. boredm is like an everyday thing. just sleeping over the morning, afternoon and night. just some training to top the bill like any soldiers would. and that was it. Ops B. by wednesday and once again we touch shores of Jurong Island. Even-though we merrily & happily waved good deal to it few months. but im bless i won't be standing for Ops. V. Lion. Thats gonna give me the headache triple plus to that i'm having now.

back from town exchanging baby's tops from G2000. And glutton up my extra bacon cold-cut trio over the looking-glass of Lido.

dinner irregardless a wet day can be

2008-03-24T19:21:00.002+08:00

FABULOUS night was awesome. it was so funny how i knock my ass into Lulu. She is the cashier, & of course my cousin. Now I'm climbing the ladder to being full-bloom. But it was an awesome night despite having a terrible venue at Boiler Room. The entire mortley crew stomp and haunt the stage. Dennis, Raihan, Dave, Junaidy, Parco, Jason and Aaron. We had a great time in-whole actually.

Dinner with Aaron in a minute or two.

a blessing upon the 7th day of sabbath

2008-03-23T18:37:00.002+08:00

i wouldn't quite apologize for what i did. i never will unless i get to the core of it. i enjoy feedbacks though, momentarily bitch-ified cultured. it's when your horns start sprouting out; or mine atleast for the least of records. but making a laughing statuory is like child-like entertainment. you'd probably discover how gigglish you get when someone topple of his feet or slap a chunk of rice of his spoon when he eats. you know how it stimulate your nerve running up and down those veins.

so i'd ignorantly consider how somehow similar it is; i can consider that with butt-cheeks raised up high.

pretty weird how i found out i might be gradually recovering from a sheen splint. i had problems dancing or even walking. well, basically i discovered it when i was walking down for some playtime. tantric was an infested slum of bee. leave the queen-bees aside. i just got cuddle up with my baby for all that it matters. apparently how mellow and over-shadowed play was for the saturday evening. terrible list of song, and an unfamiliar face behind the disc-jocking system may have explained. deal with my complain! i had to share the dance-floor with people i wouldn't even wanna share my aura of breathing space with.

we hung out at maxwell. bitched. gossip. loud-headed. laughed. giggled. glutted. we basically did what we'd always do. so no pounding on the masses on how big a deal it is. But! the big deal tonight is being sunday night. the 7th day of the week free. liberty to shake my booty just one more night before pounding my muscle on battery through physical annihilation. so i'm definately gonna hit back!

an empty stomach is a craving grave

2008-03-22T18:35:00.002+08:00

i have my cranky moments most of the time. just like now, i've decided to stay home and not get anything to fill my slightly greedy stomach. so i've my cravings to eat pasta. but mom wants to go over to subway since tiong bahru got her own. & three cheers for that! now it's so much easier to get my subway sandwiches. but i might still be having pasta anyw. down tonight by the colourful streets of chinatown again. but it won't get it's colours unless you unwrap the party boy for the occasion. unfortunatly aaron & dave won't be joining us. but queen-bee dennis is.

looking at the weather, i'm doubtful that sentosa tanning will even happen. but st james would poke another options in your toe. speaking of which, i had a great laugh to the queeny creativity of some pussyboy dance group on youtube. i just can't hold myself from laughing and getting out of breathe. oh! the things i do for fun.

im getting things with shak. well. not getting on. but trying to make things just suttle and friendly with him. his hot & we all know that. taking my eyes off would be an obstacle. BUT! i've to keep my straighjacket on i suppose. his a cool kid after-all.

in the middle of a broken-heart

2008-03-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

i'm in the middle of a heart that cracked open for the reason of misfortune and misinterpretation. but it wouldn't last to be that intense that each tear drop would meteoroid all over the unpleasant honesty of earth. but it just brings me to confusion & it plagues my heart to know i'm not taken seriously. i hate people embracing my simplicity & commitment as a loose form of word and a stray point of my feeling. but every time i see him. i just can't see anything and anyone else. & his partially the reason why i still believe i can be actually a nice & serious person. despite my rough rowdy flirty days. so hopefully someday before may turns blue, i can put his picture down and get some sleep.

we hung out. raihan, shawn and dennis tagged. i believe my openly flirtatious character called us a couple.

the touch of your warmness

2008-03-20T21:06:00.002+08:00

working down the Nile with a rifle on my back and a load to burden upon. i reckon the steps i take are the essential to the ticking of the stop watch. standard obstacle course is not an unhappiness. it's a requirement raised to envy and challenge your physical bond limit. it was a year since i rumble through the physical & height defying obstacle. clearing it wasn't a problem. but sustaining each breathe i sip into my lung and out through my nostril. for it's most obvious you can judge my failure, and the process for SOC will retake partial of my personal time slots back in camp.

so tomorrow is good friday i reckon. so there is no reason why you should question my extra day off. just after booking-out; i struggle my pride on SOC. And now, i've just couple of minutes left to leave for granny's. what i'm looking forward to is aunt's place for good friday. it's been three years on it's average that i actually visited her or dropped by her sanctuary. now that she's back from her 1 month long trip & i've spare time to sake.

plans might just sound so perfect. but i'm partial interest in beaching. now that my baby isn't coming. but st james would be a possibility. i need a rub on my back before that. & he knows i need one. speaking of which. i had a sparkling great 4hours with my baby just yesterday. fried rice with his favour and waffles on us both. & i'm flattered by the words that pour spelt 'i'd go st james if you would. because i'm kinda fond of you'. his the sweetest since candy. how wish he'd stay to possess me more than just this mile away.

shake those booties

2008-03-16T15:34:00.003+08:00

what would a typical party boy do on a satuday night? you wouldnt need much of creativity to get that settled. we had no choice but to skip the free entry & head down to tantric. me and jun shared a jug. & he took a shit in tantric (i wasnt suppose to say this), until babyboy came along. we hung around a little before heading down play. misfortunately raihan couldn't join us. but i had a moderate good time. despite being pissed whom i had to share the dance floor with & aaron missing in-abit..

despite being a complete whimp in ignorance last night. i hold back in grief that i had to. i wouldn't usually do that to someone i have no harm against. but i don't get why my instinct seperates the thought of my heart. and what pains my heart is to see the company you grow to build and share your precious self with. drop from my arch lifestyle, but concentrate on what you were and what now that you have grown to be. i heard it all on your 'sexually-stimulating' accounter with your new founds. but i believe you're wiser than you are now. times of crisis don't meant times of self-flattery. i woundn't need to extend anything to make this better, you're smarter than your usual & you know that.

i think im in solitary silence with my mom. despite her disgust over my party habit, she's questioning my responsibility over the pets. but in entire whole. i only have one thing to share. don't be arouse by the cute & cuddly sides because you know you have a higher price to pay with your money, time & responsibility. the funny thing is; i didn't even bring pets back home. despite being a vivid animal-lover. i wish this all to over. obviously takes one part of my burden dragging away.

& facebook is a new clarity. you guys should add me - Raga Venthran.

silence yourself

2008-03-15T12:50:00.004+08:00

for some reason. i had bad waffles. mine was like waffle with passionfruit & chocolate sauce. & aaron had them with chocolate ice cream with caramel. his was so much better! WHY!? i always get crap food.

but party was great. raihan and jun and dave. and i met irene ang on stage. she's so funny & random. of course i saw afew ugly living-things around the block. dance with a really hot chick - shannon. she's so pretty i tell you.

looking forward to a better one mabe tonight. gotta have some greens about now.

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well they say pampering don't come so easy. the touch of a warm human is the softest touch. the the flavour of food is like magic and gold. and pride blossoms when you painstakingly provide it by your bare hands. that is a definate self-flattery.

apart from the dress help i got from zen. those pre-sorted out salad leaves by the pasar or any other supermarket is convenient. chopped in afew slices of black-peppered sausage and grilled some shitake mushroom over butter. it's not the worst i've tasted you know? but well. it was definate better than the pork-rib which was a waste of money. all i need now. is some kiddy jellies & a big fat burp!

watching gabriel over the domain. and im about to explode from all the feeding. might just shuckle up under the sheets for a short nap. i hope it wouldnt get to loud. i can't believe i actually snored last night. i guess his bed is did that magic.

you're the sweetest thing since candy

2008-03-14T20:06:00.005+08:00

deployment is over. & im seeing more of those. but im pretty wisely sure the stage 2 of evaluation is dump far down the drain. i'm glad with the news. happy i wouldn't be suffering or planning on skipping them.

i had my small little cuddle cuddle yesterday evening. i had the night off from a great job done at EMR. and i had a... err... well... moderatly passable dinner at thaiEXPRESS. it wasn't quite a big boogy. just that; it's possibly entertaining with the company of aaron. i crash 2hrs watching family guy with him. and it still don't give me the chills.

so tonight will be another cuddle cuddle at galare. and what more will we get from unwrapping the party boys-pleasure close to sex.

you're the sweetest thing since candy.

tap on the heels of my new dress

2008-03-11T13:22:00.002+08:00

the un-doubtfully glamour-ridden sexually desiring heels are mine finally. ohh! ohh! & i'm also going for lab.series from now on. grandma brought me for a med. check on my skin dysfunction and i manage to wrap up a good cream for it.

so today would be 1 night and followed by another. & deployment might just finally be done. it was suppose to end today; but the moon and the sun had to collide don't it. so even though my tolerance level is at it's peak. i'm not going to get a head start by bitch-fitting.

im falling in love with malay song. so random. looking forward to a waffle & ice-cream session on friday with aaron. then party time! can't believe he called me a woman. im going to kill him.

unviled memories to euphoria

2008-03-10T14:31:00.004+08:00

my bag

i had their weirdest dream last night. dreaming about going back to those good-old days in starbucks. probably grandma's bed comes with tear dropping memories. finally deployment is seeing an end. shopping spree with raihan today. woopie! maybe a little special dinner back under aaron's arms.

romantica

2008-03-05T13:46:00.002+08:00

whats with me and romance genre movies? entirely puzzling group of prefrence. never had the crave till 2 weeks back. i finally caught pearl harbour, and i'm about to slap myself twice for missing it. now i wouldn't wanna miss another romance-theme movie again.

but i don't seem to see myself in any particularly. i finally relaise what i want. and im glad i wouldnt have to fuzzle and puzzle over my emotions or thoughts of one or another. in my dreams i'd always see myself with someone. but now, small crushes are nothign that'll lead into a relationship. im convince i'm not gonna look at a relationship till i'm mst willingly comfortable with having one. but im pretty sure that some day things will come perfect.

can't wait to get my hands on my new fit shoe. so excited! party time with the babes and aaron. hopefully it come in terms. back-packing to camp is always a pain in the ass. hate it so much. im head over hills on makig a worth while experience when mandatory ends. and im pledge i wouldnt wanna see the green ever again.

a crush with a model

2008-03-04T23:50:00.002+08:00

a crush with a model. i meant america's next top model of course. always been a fan of it untill cycle 5 6 and 7 had crap winners. but eight is good. being back over the off day is great. catching up with aaron was kinda cute. finally family guy is knda cute, random and funny; just like him. meeting raihan was typical. but never boring. we went facial cleanser squinting. i need help i swear. i hate deplyment activities. i hate the military. i hate two-lifestyle fakefaces. for some reaosn i hate people like shak. yea! i said it. & this is for real.

flux and a degenerative illusion

2008-02-28T11:41:00.001+08:00

i just dont need the understatement that goes; 'aiyah! you're gonna buy it so i don't think we should get it.' or something that goes 'eh! why you buy. now i have the same one as you.' whats with all the misplacing of selfishness all over me. i mean; whats the matter if both of us have the same thing. it's not as if you own the boutique that you should be the only one who has it. or is there a problem that both of us having the same thing? does it even matter a milestone? some people are just so stereotypically minded.

make the most out of a vintage

2008-02-27T22:11:00.002+08:00

are old friends just old and wrinkled or a treasured piece of art? its hard to tell when you're flying fast on your contacts list; apart from grooming a new set of friends or lifestyle. but it's the most gayest thing to know yu have the vintage one that still have your back and treasure your company. which in time brings you joy with a character you're familiar with. i've grown to make room for everyone. despite filtering.

speaking of vintage. i got a new bag. yay! it's an army green vintage keepall suitcase from haji lane. miracally i found out that oliver knows people back at HUAT - it's going one whole cycle back to aisha and those days i spend with nana at HUAT.

i spent the entire day with raihan, my BFF. being random, bitching, bitchfitting & eye candying are part of routine town-walks. and no one can take that away from us!

i also learn that my ex found his soul mate. which is no suprise because - its hard for somepeople to be single for sometime. there are reasons why i wont say hi again. there are reasons why i wont lick what i spat.

the beauty of the dark & the light.

2008-02-21T21:50:00.004+08:00

i think i just walked out being sick. bad sore throat and feverish motion make me feel so weak. it's my off day today and i made good use of it in couple of directions. regardless of the bad aches, i manage to collect my ultered pants and made warrenty worth-while with nokia. met dave for a little nipsy nipsy and SPY is a good choice of clothing. I heart henry lau's pants. but you pay a price for it.

i caught epic movie, meet the spartans and now spiderman 3. all missed during their premier dates much earlier. im bless i dont have to pay a single cent for it. thumbs up!

so deployment as promise is a wreck behind my back. the weather is a killer and the dust is a pain. i just can't wait for EMR to put a full-stop at a whole.

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ive yet to pen this down. regardless of how often you read word for word. im still gonna make it worth while. coming across you so soon wasn't my idea or intension. i manage to feel slightly comforable with you around. your humility, awareness and your warmness. im beginning to take it to heart. gradually accepting your child-like behaviour. for sometimes you actually do remind me of me back in my days as an angsty loud and narcissistic teenage kiddo. even for the obvious that im in doubt if you're the one for me. but you're the cutest ive to admit. regardless of its minimallity, we made time a treasure. i hope to spending more time with you before im ready to say ill be by your side. just keep that loud and ruthless comment going. it humors me alot.

retro evening

2008-02-17T15:22:00.004+08:00

last night retro evening just makes you gobble down so much booze and hot people. taking a dip in the pool wasnt a choice before, until how tempting it met. to an extend that im having a hang-over. tantric then after. im just happy im by his side when his at his down. i hope id make a diff.

я тебе говорил, я найти де-код

a gift in time, a memory in awhile.

2008-02-16T17:17:00.002+08:00

i have a gift i would never share. my grandparents. and the comfort of their generousity and their warmness are sensual. it's the crucial part of life and the most appreciated. and the valuptious meal she prepares are like dug out gold. if there is a tatto i would wanna get, that would be that of my grandpa's.

i have to admit what a crap week it was. an entire week of preparation for the parade of BG. one hack week it was with it's most peek leak in sleep. but i broke the ice with amin and naeem. thats cool alright. now packing the soles up for party night next month.

and speaking of party. in which im hitting up tonight at vincent's. im gladding it to be fun. even thought its nothing extreme whipe out over the table. gladly different with the company of raihan and dave.

deployment till the next pay shift. im saving my bucks for this part. im broke. i have to plan whats for next months money to waste on. dennis owes me twenty. bitch.

the bells are ringing

2008-02-10T12:34:00.000+08:00

i had a raunchy night at club. & not to mention the boost, good crowd & music. i think i've spent a little extra for this month, & i'm gonna be screwed for that. i got my hands on my jeans/pants finally. and am very proud of it. it's three times cheaper than what i can get at stylenordic. and yet its still perfect. i'm yet to get a new pair of shoes. i just wounder what i'l get. retro party saturday! woot!

darkenth days to come.

2008-02-03T15:10:00.000+08:00

some reason i wish i never pen the pervious post down. it didnt happen. but i wasn't sobbing. i had a company of an old friend whom i use to fell all over for. for some reason it was a special evening in a way. his like a lil' baby.

whereas; i have alot to say this evening. alot of action also. whats queers for right? it's a blessing i'm not on my way back to dungeon. got soem time with raiha and un. bitching all night long. mouth confirm fill with ulcer. including the starbuck cashier.

now that i got my costume settle for the party. i don't need to worry about that part of the load. i'm bless to find the perfect and MOST vers. jeans/pants i ever shelf in my wardrobe. thanks to perfection made easy from garcon.

world can hold on

2008-02-02T19:04:00.000+08:00

i'm lucky lucky punky today.
i've a date tonight.
yum!
uber-fuckilicious hottie pie.
i'd <3 to have my hands around
and a pierce of HEARTS.
wooohoo!
;)

unveiled memories to euphoria

2008-02-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

i wouldn't say i'm a big fan of the jungle. in particularlly when you get bunch of gross creepy ccrawllers up and down you, being bait to nail size mosquitos and your PS is just beind your back. you can imagine that it's not only all pest ridden but annoying. i might have pull the trigger to self-destruct. but handle it smoothly and night-dream my way through the dirt. sparing tiem starring into space. for the most perfect time to just stare in awe and feel useless. counting the stars and unveiling memories to euphoria. taiwan was the perfect flashback. unsoiled dirt, cooling weather which brings dead to the mosquitos and ants. not forgetting no voice from an irritating superior. it was like heaven in the jungle. oh! and a perfect view to rest assure your stability in morale. those were the best moment out field can give you - taiwan.

so we got a little pay of in the morning. national education trip? how patriotic and cheap. but historically amusing and captivating. i'm oblighed to say i'm interested; but it was a fare deal of information especially war heros and tall tales. so we're all reeling in a long break. i have duty regime in the middle.

and all that were beautiful

2008-01-27T18:34:00.001+08:00

chewing up blocks of processed cuttlefish meat. i odd to get them from taiwan. tour guids are a dump. i can get them right here by the chinese new year bazaar. oh! and the mua chis' are so tempting i tell you.

i had a rather suttle weekend. its not quite a big deal with martin either. i was rather excited. romantism was a downfall. but company was good. good deal of hotties on friday ngiht compared to last's.

im urging broke. i can sense it. i need my pay. boo hoo!